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Thursday, April 14, 2011

Step back, Take a breath, Dive in?

Hey, I think it's been about 2 weeks, sorry about that. Things were so busy and I kind of forgot that my computer existed including my camera :P. Ev came over for about 10 days and I can honestly say I was so blessed. I have learned to appreciate the days where I can just lay in bed and not have to get up and do anything or even take a shower in the daytime instead of at night after the boys are sleeping. It was really hard though going from "single mom" to not having to do anything and I found myself losing self control and becoming a brat rather than grateful. Ack! I'm losing my train of thought and inspiration on this piece. It's so easy to lose yourself in things that overwhelm you instead of taking a step back, breathing, and diving in. I really need to work on this because I find myself almost willing to dive into anything and deal with consequences later...Most times, it leads to bridges being blown to smithereens and relationships are lost along the way.

Step back, Take a breath, Dive in.......

I never want to be selfish, disrespectful, and ungrateful in anything. I know that it is inevitable and there will sometimes in life where it will happen. After all, we are ALL humans..I don't care what you say, YOU ARE HUMAN and WE ALL WILL SCREW UP. I'm going to lose my patience, I'm going to be ungrateful, and I most likely one day will kill my children (just kidding) I love them way too much and no matter what happens in the day I am so blessed to have them in my life. (as Zion is climbing all over me while I am writing this)

Step Back, Take a breath, Dive in.....


I think this will be my challenge this week and who knows maybe try to push through with it in the rest of my life (there are no guarantees) :) I want to live life, knowing I at least tried to make a difference in my attitude and views of life.
I hope this wasn't insanely chaotic, and I hope this finds you well. This week, I guess I will have to post picture some other time cause blogger won't let me right now..phooey!

4 comments:

Evan said...

I'm proud to be around you. I can see you growing with every post.

Grace McHugh said...

Most people don't want to hear that they will be selfish, mean and.........human. American is about fluff and tolerance these days. I am a sinner and sin stinks. But..............we have the Hope and I pray that through my many mistakes my children will see that Hope. You are diving into unknown waters at time but.........you will always have a lifeline. Great post sister.

Still Voice Photography said...

you both are absolutely marvelous :)

Zee said...

I love your honesty. I find it refreshing when someone is brave enough to speak truth. We all blow it, make mistakes, screw up, and hope that in the midst of our "stuff" the people that we love the most will be able to walk with us through the hard times, AND that our children will indeed survive and be somehow be stronger in the process. Thank you for surviving your imperfect mother, I love you!